Faith

This morning Rowan was sitting watching one of her shows and looking glum.  "How come you look so sad?" I asked.  "I miss baby Harris" she replied.  I hugged her as she listed off a few things she would be doing with him as a baby if he were here with us now.  Later in the afternoon, she mentioned again how she was missing baby Harris.  I'm so sad for her that she isn't getting to have the experience of being a big sister, but it brings me happiness to know that she thinks about her brother.

For many of the past few months, Rowan has frequently talked about her sister.  As an only child (of the earthly variety), I assume she is talking about a sibling she may potentially have in the future.  In fact, she so often talks about this sister, she almost has me believing it.  She'll often talk about saving an outgrown pair of shoes or toy for her sister, or telling me that one day she will show her sister how to do something.  We've talked to her numerous times about how we hope that one day we will have another baby, and that she will get to have another sibling, but that it's not possible to pick if a baby will be a boy or girl.  

After dinner this evening, we had an extremely interesting conversation.  I was sitting on the chair in my living room and she comes over and hugs me and tells me "You're my best Mommy".  Then she said "I missed you."

"What do you mean you missed me?  I've been here with you all day."

"I missed you when I was away."

"You weren't away, you were here all day with me."

"No!  I missed you when I wasn't in your tummy."  

"You missed me when you weren't in my tummy?  Do you mean after you were born?"

"I missed you when I was with the other babies who were away."


A shiver went up my spine....


"What do you mean?  Do you mean you missed me after you were born?  You stayed with me the whole time.  We were still together even after you weren't in my tummy."

"No!  When I was with the other babies who were away."

"What other babies that are away?"

"The babies that are away!!!"  (At this point she's getting really frustrated at me for not understanding)

"Do you mean before you were in my tummy?"

"Yes!  I missed you when I was away."


More shivers....I believe I am understanding what she is trying to say.  Or at the very least, I am drawing my own conclusions.


"Did you choose me & Daddy when you were away?" 

"Yes, I chose you from a box." (hmmmm.....)


"Do you think Daddy and I have another baby that's away that will be in my tummy some day?"

"Yes.  A sister."


And so I have faith.